wanna grow old with you...

this feeling strikes back toward my empty heart, harder than before, left the scar that uneasy to clean out. Usually i can deal with it fairly, I'm able to negotiate firmly...but now i run out of my clear mind, my logical mind surrender to this suck feeling. Usually it won't stay for a long, i possibly find the way to change out the feeling with another energy to fill up.
What i remember now, just your shadow, your calm smile, your caring, your passion. The way you show your cares, your love in different way. Using your own way that different from an ordinary guy, but still it keeps me fall in love to you each day. The way we quarrel, argue and defend our believe, still it keeps me miss your presence. Both of us want to be the last person to show on the "feeling" to each other, but anyhow we hide it, even in the smartest way, precisely it shows how much we love each other...no words could be enough to say just I MISS YOU SO BADLY...MISS OUR COMPLETE PRESENCE :') coming home soon dear...you know where to find me.....IVVLY MUCH

mencintai atau dicintai??mana yang lebih kamu pilih? pasti jawabannya "dicintai". Amat sangatlah wajar, karna sudah sifat dasarnya sebagian besar atau mungkin semua manusia ingin selalu menjadi pihak yang menerima, menjadi objek, menjadi yang diberi, dengan kata lain kita tidak ingin menjadi pihak yang kehilangan satu hal apapun yang ada di diri kita :)
namun adilkah saat kita hanya mengharap pemberian, hanya mengharap untuk dicintai tanpa timpal balik yang serupa?? bukankah adanya pihak yang "dicintai" itu juga karna adanya pihak yang "mencintai" ?? semuanya berkesinambungan, menciptakan sebab akibat...jadi tentukan pilihan anda....
Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage - Lao Tzu